He spoke to his shadow and told her he had never wanted to be in this place again.
She asked him about heartbreak and he replied that heartbreak only had a place to call home when you allowed yourself to fall in love; and she told him that had been his first mistake.
He cried himself to sleep that night, once he realized that heartbreak was the price of love, and the cost of life. He cried because, even though he had never wanted to be in this place again, there was no other place he wanted to be because she was in his heart.